dreama_00

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 07:13:16 GMT

I used to be a daily visiter and poster to LJ, until around a year ago when i stopped in hopes of over coming this nasty burden of an eatign disorder...

Since leaving my anorexia has developed into excessive binging and purging episodes...to the point of 6 times per day.

Current Stats vs. Stats when I left:

Height: 5'8" 5'7"
Weight: 115 lbs 110lbs

Current Measuremtns:
Bust: 32"
Waist: 25"
Hips: 34"

I have returned in hopes that i can control my consumption and put a stop to the binging and purging.

I was scouted by an agent at the beginning of 2008 and therefore need to loose, if not maintain my stats to ensure work x

Questionnaire

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 05:02:12 GMT

Age: 16
Height: 5'7.5"
Heighest Weight: 125.4 lbs
Lowest Weight: 99 lbs
Current Weight: 110 lbs
Goal Weight : 99 lbs....maybe lower, i was unsatisfied when i was at that weight.. but lookng at photos now at 110lbs, i look significantly smaller.
Fave food : fruit, veges, sushi
Fave Drink : water, frappuchinos, jamba
Fave Exercise : exercise when you don't even realise your doing it... like playing tiggy =D... otherwise jogging and ball situps
Thinspo : victoria secret models
Where do you slip up? after school, having not eaten all day.. it is not uncommon for me to binge and purge
When did it start? 14years.. i discovered i could purge.. FUK IT!
Why did it start? because i had various people tell me i was fat, and i was uncomfortable not being one of the thinner girls.. i don't think people realise what comments like that actually do to someone!!
Anyone know? yes....i havn't said anything but i i hear people talking
Do you want help? yes... an eating disorder is a huge burden on one's life.. but at the same time as wanting to recover, i can't. Getting bigger scares me, so i have made many unsuccessful attempts to recover myself.
Diet pills? No...
fave binge food: Liquids because they're easy to get back up
Fave dieting food: liquids only, veges only
How many cals do you consume a day? between 0-700, depending on the day and how i feel about my body.

Are you in a relationship? no
Do you feel pressure to be thin? yes, i am a model so being thin is a necessity
Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? generally the thin one.. now, never used to be that way
Are you depressed? most days.. not that anyone is aware of this
Do you self harm? purging count?

Ever tried to commit suicide? seriously thought about it for a while there
Ever been to a psychologist? counsiler...

fill out your own answers n post it as a comment.. if u feel like it that is =)

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 05:13:59 GMT

I NEVA WRITE ON THIS !!! .. so i decided a year and a hlaf after my last entry, that i would!

On saturday, which is in 3 days im starting up a 10 day fast. I will tell parents are fine if i say its a detox. On the 10th of September i have a fashion show, so if i look like shit then, itll give me a motivational boost to carry on. Maybe 20 days?? It's starting to stop raining nowdays, maybe i can start up running again!!

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 10:09:38 GMT

So tomorrows my little lunch thing, i know im going to purge........ BUT I REALLY WOULD PREFER NOT TO RESORT TO THAT!!!!!!!!!